Thursday Special

Order up! Thursday is brought to you by the one who loves you! Unconditionally, irrevocably and for eternity. Whether you believe in Him concerns Him not, for He believes in you. He is the great "I am". With faith all things are possible, and the fact that we are created in his image...is mind boggling. He doesn't like when bad things happen to good people, but without them would we have any type of character at all? Bad things have happened to me and good things have happened to me and great things have happened to me and the culmination of all these things has made me who "I am". He, is not done with me yet and for this I am thankful. Thankful to witness the great with the minuscule, the key to enjoying this life is simple in all actuality. I didn't think so for the longest time. It's hard to see beauty when you're going through trials. To stumble during trials is exhausting, and depressing. You must keep your head up and your eyes open. If your searching but you don't know what for, turn your eyes and your heart to Him, and He will show you what you need. Be ever thankful, teach yourself to say thank you. As a part of "The Secret" the author says to start your day with gratitude. Upon waking when your first foot hits the floor, "Thank" with the second foot, "you". As you repeat this mantra everyday, you start to feel it more throughout the day. You may not mean it those first few days if your buried deep in depression, but patience and mercy to you. Keep repeating, "Thank you."  Thank you for the crisp breeze that hit my face this morning and sucked the air out of my lungs for it let me know that I'm alive! Thank you for finding the dime on the ground for it is abundance. If your thankful for the little things, you will be surprised to find He will bestow upon you greater things.
I lost the ability to be thankful a while back. I had abundance, and boy did I live like I had more. Then as I wasn't thankful for every little thing, everything started to disappear. My "stuff", my health, my happiness, all gone. Depression and self medication habits set in. The pain wouldn't go away. I looked toward different self help books, and learned a lot in the process. The one book that held the key though is the one I wasn't reading. It's all in there, every helpful hint, everything you want to know and even a lot of things you don't. The Bible. Find a well translated version that is easy to understand, that would be my suggestion. There are many ways to read it. You can read it in a devotional sequence, where each day you learn something different many times depending on where you are in your life. I, not knowing where to begin, followed my heart and started at the beginning. Then as I read more, I started jumping around. Googling bible quotes on different subjects and instead of reading just that one verse sometimes reading the whole chapter or book that contained it. I found that the less I had the more thankful for things I became. The more thankful I was the more God gave me. I didn't just wake up and say, "Thank you." anymore I really meant it. Just last weekend I started to feel loved again. The overwhelming God given love that we are all supposed to feel all the time. I don't mean loved by a person, I'm lucky I have that all the time, but when your in the midst of depression that love doesn't penetrate the walls you build around yourself. You have to delve deep within yourself and find Gods love. I'm sure it's out there for each one of us. We all must travel that path, and travel it alone. For even if we're surrounded by loved ones, unless we're happy and feel loved by God; learning to love ourselves we will never be fulfilled. We are each and everyone of us a beautiful individual on the inside. For we are made in his image, so how can we not be wonderful and perfect. Don't let the mean things that comes out of others mouths bring you down, for they mean nothing, and most of the time it's a lie brought on by their own insecurity and pain.
I am, done for today. I'll get off my soapbox. On I must go completing things that need completing, tomorrow I will be creative.  Let me leave you with a message. I am glad that you came to read my blog. I am positive something is changing in your life. Above all know that you are loved, as you are now, and as the person you are on the road to becoming.
-Namaste